In Reply to: Fetish posted by YoungBootboy on November 06, 2017 at 01:17:22:
Thank you so very much for sharing your story. I did read the whole thing. I have PTSD from being bullied as a kid, and today I am hypervigilant about having anyone I don't know well in my personal space, or neighbors going over the property line to rake leaves!
You have had a very traumatic, scary, and horrible (and I think illegal) experience. No one should ever have to go through such a horrid INVASIVE thing like that! Wow.
First, realize that you need immediate professional help from a licensed therapist. Immediate. This experience is eating you alive, literally. You are paralyzed. A therapist will help you work through your trauma and eventually get you back where you need to be.
You state in another post that your fetish caused your problems. Maybe. If "they" had done a background check on me like they did on you, "they" would have found some of the same stuff for me. We all have our "things." Mine happens to be boots, as is yours. I have come a long way in accepting myself and the fact that I like to wear boots every day, even to work.
I see something going on here. Deep down inside you don't accept yourself for who and what you are. A professional will help you work through this.